Saved N Sexy Radio Interview: Blaque Diamond

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On March 2, 2018, I had the opportunity to appear as a guest on Saved N Sexy Radio. I always love doing interviews of any kind. The more exposure I can get myself, and my business, the better. It was an interview full of inspiration and insight into how I became the Blaque Diamond I am. The ladies made me feel welcome and comfortable to talk about myself and my books. I have been invited to participate in future interviews and other endeavors that will help to expand my brand and further my career. I am so thankful for the hospitality shown to me, and I hope someone found, or can find inspiration, motivation, and encouragement from my personal story.

Get to know more about me and my life’s story. Check out the video below for the entire interview. Be sure to leave any comments, or questions you may have either on the video itself, or on this post. Thank you so much for tuning in!!!

Diamond in the Rough: A Collection of Personal Essays and Poems

 

 

Picture of a shining black diamond gem

 

Being the inspirational person that I am, it has been put on my heart to write this book. In it, I share different accounts of things that I have experienced in my life. Much of what I talk about in this book is painful, but I feel that it can help someone out there suffering through something that they feel is pulling them under. I want to give my readers hope. I want them to know that despite how things may seem right now, things will get better. The underdog doesn’t stay down forever, and with God by your side, you can make it through any situation. That is the only way I can explain how I am still here after all I have been through. It has to be nothing but God.

 

I want to share with you the introduction to my book. My hope is that this book touches someone out there struggling to get through life. I want to inspire, encourage, uplift, and motivate them to keep going. Don’t give up on life. The waters may look murky now, but through strength, determination, and God, you will clear away all the murk and see the clear, clean water below. Weeping may endure for the night, but joy comes in the morning. I had to go through all I went through in order to help someone else through it. Lets cross the finish line to victory together!

 

Introduction to Diamond in the Rough: A Collection of Personal Essays and poems

 

Introduction:

 

My purpose for writing this book is to help encourage, motivate, uplift, and inspire others out there who may be struggling with things in their life for which they see no way out of. It was not my intention to write a book sharing different events in my life that were painful for me, but when God puts something on your heart, you do what you are led to do. In this book I share my personal stories of trials and tribulations that I have endured. Things have never been easy for me, but through it all I am still standing, and I am stronger than I have ever been before. It took me a long time to transition into this state of mind. The roads were dark and long, and most times lonely, but I made it through. By the grace of God, I am a survivor. I am alive to tell my story. There were many times I wanted to just give up on life, but God brought me through. He is an awesome God, and heard my pleas. He delivered me from the pain and brought me peace.

 

The essays and poems you will find in this book are true accounts of situations that I have faced throughout the years. From child abuse, rape, and domestic violence, I share them all here. These are my true emotions, thoughts, feelings, and ideas written in these pages. I’m sure there is someone out there who has experienced one, some, or all of the situations that I have faced in this book. I want my stories to show you that you don’t have to remain a victim, but you can become the victor of your circumstances. God does not put more on us than we can carry. I know at times it seems as though things aren’t ever going to get better, but believe in your heart and soul that you will prevail. What doesn’t kill you only makes you stronger. You are stronger than even you know you are.

 

If no one else has ever told you, I want to be the one to tell you that despite your dark past, you have a bright future ahead of you. We all suffer in life in some way, shape, or form, but we have to have the strength to go on, but sometimes it’s hard to smile when you’re used to frowning. For me, my life has been filled with nothing but pain and tears, but through God and his unconditional love for me, I have a reason to smile. When I shed tears, they are no longer tears of pain, but tears of joy. Through Jesus Christ, I found the love I have always been searching for. No matter what, his love will never forsake me.

 

I have broken my chains of pain and heartache. I am no longer a prisoner of fear, humiliation, and doubt. I know who and what I am. I now have confidence in myself that I didn’t have before. I am no longer ashamed of the things that made me who I am. I turned my trials into triumphs. Instead of breaking me, my life’s experiences made me into the diamond you see today. A diamond starts as a piece of coal deep in the belly of the earth. With time, heat, and pressure, slowly that piece of coal transforms into a beautiful gem. It took trauma, abuse, neglect, and fear to transform me into the diamond I am. Instead of letting the struggles of your life keep you buried in the ground, use those struggles to rise to the top and shine bright like the diamond you are.

 

When I was finally able to conquer my demons and see myself for the beautiful, light-hearted, ambitious, quizzical, unique, and extraordinary diamond I was, Blaque Diamond was born. For me, it represents words I feel describe me. It symbolizes my growth and my strength to overcome the toughest situations and still be standing. I am renewed. I am reborn. I am a Blaque diamond. Reach for your inner Blaque diamond. Let your light shine through.

 

A Blaque Diamond

 

Beautifully created from this earth

Light-hearted and full of laughter

Ambitious and goal oriented, I am

Quizzical and willing to seek knowledge in all ways possible

Uniquely different and at times the same

Extraordinary creation from god’s paintbrush

 

Determined to overcome all obstacles in my way

Intelligence is a gift that is priceless

Another gem within a world of beautiful gemstones

Miles of mountains and hills climbed to seek inner peace

Observant of my every day development and ways to improve me

Not easily broken and defeated, instead I conquer

Diamonds are a girl’s best friend, but I am my own diamond

 

Coming soon in April 2018!!!! Stay tuned.

 

 

 

Concealing the Truth

 

Have you read my novel “His or Her Betrayal?” If not, here is a chapter sample for you to sink your teeth into. It is actually one of my favorite chapters of the book. This book is full of secrets and lies. Who will be left standing once all the cobwebs are cleared?

picture of a stack of files with the word top-secret stamped across the top

 

CHAPTER 9

 

Concealing the Truth

 

Three wonderful years have passed, and life is good. I no longer work for the escort service. I am now a receptionist at a law firm, so I am not hurting for money. My surgery was a success, and things are going well for me. I made sure to follow all my surgeons’ instructions for my post-surgery care, and I went to all the required check-ups. Everything is the way it should be. I am now officially Michelle Anderson. No more hiding. No more feeling as if I’m some extraterrestrial creature. I am now all woman. I attend a support group once a week for trans-sexual members who have already gone through the transformation or are in the process of going through it. Being around others who are just like me makes my transition so much easier. I also go to therapy once a week with Dr. Martin. The sessions are helping a lot to help me feel good about myself. I had an appointment today, so I jumped into my car and made my way to the doctor’s office. When I arrived, I signed in and waited for my name to be called.

 

“Michelle Anderson,” the receptionist called out, searching around the waiting area.

 

I stood up and followed her to the back where Dr. Martin’s office was located. She was sitting behind her desk looking through some paperwork. When she noticed that I had entered her office, she stacked the papers neatly and stood up to greet me.

 

“How are you today Michelle?” she asked, extending her hand for a shake.

 

“I am good Dr. Martin,” I replied, shaking her hand and making my way over to the comfortable couch.

 

“So, how are things going with you? Are you happy? No regrets?”

 

“Nope. No regrets at all. I feel great. I feel free. I am living my life, and everything is going good. I have a great support system behind me.”

 

“That’s great! How are your parents?”

 

“My mother is good. We had lunch yesterday, and she is coming over to the house tomorrow to bring me some clothing that she has outgrown. My father, of course, is the same. He refuses to speak to me or even mention that I exist. He said he no longer has a child. My mother told me that he wrote me out of his will and all of his other personal finances.”

 

“How does that make you feel?”

 

“It hurts, but it is what it is. I can’t change who I am, and I won’t beg him to accept me if he won’t. If he doesn’t want to acknowledge that he has a child, then it is his loss. I’m done with it. I want to live my life in peace and be happy.”

 

“Well, it might take your father a little longer to come around if he ever does. Don’t count him out yet.”

 

“My father was counted out the day I was born,” I said, rolling my eyes.

 

“Ok. Just keep that in mind. How are your friends? Their names are Sara and Megan, right?”

 

Chuckling at the mix up, I corrected her, “You meant Sharon and Megan. They are great. We are still hanging in strong. They are my friends for life.”

 

“Oops. My mistake. Yes, Sharon, it is.” Dr. Martin replied, glancing down at her notepad where she had been jotting down notes.

 

“No problem.”

 

She continued to ask me questions, and I answered them honestly. Then it came to the part of the session that I always dreaded. She asked me about my love life. I was currently dating a guy named Jason I met about a year ago. Things were great between us. I even think that I am in love with him. After having my surgery, I sustained from sex because I was afraid of it not feeling good and I thought that something would happen and the guy would find out that I was born a male. I stayed single to prevent my secret from being revealed. I was paranoid for a long time until I met Jason. He is the first man that I ever had sex with as a woman, and he did things to me that I couldn’t explain. He knows everything there is to know about me, except for this one little thing. I am afraid to tell him because I don’t want to lose him.

 

I met twenty-eight-year-old Jason Carter at a local Sweat Fitness gym. We both were trying to get the same treadmill since there was only one left unoccupied. He decided to let me take the treadmill, and he went on to something else. When I finished, I went looking to find him to let him know that it was now free and I found him doing jumping jacks. His beautifully built body was glistening with sweat, and I couldn’t help but lick my lips in admiration. He caught me staring at him, and he grinned arrogantly at me. He knew he looked good. He asked me to join him, and I did. We worked out together for the remainder of our time at the gym, and we exchanged numbers before we left. We went out to dinner the next week, and we have been inseparable ever since. We moved in with each other two-months ago, and I love having him there with me. We do everything together, and we also leave time for us to do our own thing without us being up under each other all the time. Our relationship is so perfect, and I know that telling him will ruin the magic that we have.

 

“So, Michelle, have you talked to Jason yet?” Dr. Martin asked.

 

“No, but I’m going too soon.”

 

“But Michelle you have been saying that for six-months now, and you still haven’t done it yet. You have to tell him.”

 

“I know. I know. I know. I am going to tell him. I just need more time.”

 

“How much more time do you need? You need to tell him yourself because you don’t want him finding out from anyone else,” she replied with a look of concern on her face as she peered over her glasses at me.

 

“I understand that, but it’s so hard.” I sighed as tears slowly trickled down my face. “I’m afraid he is going to leave me once he finds out. I love him so much, and I want to be with him.” I sobbed into my hands.

 

“I know this is hard for you, but it isn’t fair to him for you to be keeping this secret. You should let him make the decision whether he wants to be with you once he knows the truth. You don’t want to take that right away from him, do you?” she asked, walking over to the couch and wrapping her arms around me comfortingly.

 

“N-no, I don’t.” I sniffled.

 

“It is better if you tell him the truth. If he doesn’t want to be with you after he knows, then it will have to be that way, but you can’t make that kind of decision for someone. What will be your excuse if he wants to have children? Will you lie to him and tell him that you’re barren?”

 

Still sniffling and wiping at my flowing tears, I answered, “I don’t know. I thought I’d have the answer if we ever got to that point.”

 

“Michelle, I’m not trying to tell you what to do in your relationship, but I think it will be better if you were honest with him and told him the truth. Like I said, you don’t want him hearing about this from someone else. It will only make the situation worse. You should’ve told him from the beginning, but since you are already a year in it is better late than never.” Dr. Martin advised, rubbing my back soothingly.

 

We talked for another twenty-minutes or so and then she announced that our time was up. I went ahead and scheduled my next appointment and walked with my head hanging low down the hall to the exit. This was not a good session today. Whenever the subject of my relationship came up, I would always end up in tears. This was a hard situation to be in. Once I left Dr. Martin’s office, I stopped at the gym. I needed to release some of this stress I was carrying around. I worked out for about two-hours, and then I headed home. When I got into the apartment, there were candles lit everywhere and there was a trail of rose pedals leading down the hall to our bedroom. I followed the trail with a huge smile on my face. Jason was such a romantic guy. He loved doing things like this for me. When I opened the door to our bedroom, I found him lying back on the bed with his hands behind his head. He was naked as the day he was born. He was such a sexy specimen of a man. His dark chocolate skin gleamed from what I assumed must be baby oil. His body was so amazing because he worked out six days a week. I loved looking at him and all his scrumptiousness. He was the type of man I liked. Tall, dark, and handsome. He was 6 feet 2 inches and 210 pounds of muscle. He had flawless chocolate skin and beautiful bedroom eyes. He kept his head clean-shaven, and his smile was out of this world. He had dimples so deep that I could stick my finger in them. I loved this man so much that sometimes it hurt.

 

“So, are you going to just stand there and stare at me?” he asked with a sexy smirk on his face.

 

“Mmm. I was admiring the view.” I said, making my way to the bed.

 

I sat down on the bed where Jason lay, and he grabbed me and pulled me on top of him.

 

“Let go of me. I’m sweaty.” I giggled, squirming trying to get away from him.

 

“It’s ok baby. I’m going to make you even sweatier.” he said, kissing me.

 

His kisses always did something to me. I immediately melted into his embrace as I felt myself becoming aroused. Jason slid me to the side of him and started to undress me. He stared down at me as he peeled away every stitch of my clothing. Once I was naked, he spread my legs and started kissing between my thighs. I let out soft moans of pleasure as I felt his lips graze my lower lips as he teased me.

 

“Please, Jason,” I begged, pushing his head down so that he could please me the way I desired.

 

After a little more teasing, he finally obliged. He licked and sucked on my pearl sending waves of pleasure up my spine. Jason was such a master at oral sex; it didn’t take long for me to have my first orgasm. We continued making love until we were both drained. We tried all different types of positions and once we were done my body was deliciously sore. We got into the spooning position and fell asleep in each other’s arms.

 

If you would like to see how this story ends, visit my Blaque Diamond’s Books page and purchase your copy via the links provided. Your format choices are EBook and paperback. I hope you enjoyed this sample. Be sure to leave me your thoughts below.

Alphabet of Motivation

The alphabet letters A through Z

 

We all remember how we learned our ABC’s, right? Well, try learning them again with a hint of motivation to guide you along your way. These motivational quotes and sayings can help you on your way to success in whatever you may want to do in life, or just to help you in your day to day activities. I created these quotes to help keep you inspired and motivated to reach for the stars.

 

Always believe in yourself. Even if no one else believes in you, you should believe in you.

 

Be the best that you can b. Put your best foot forward. Strive to accomplish whatever it is you want to do in life.

 

Count on yourself first to make your dreams and goals come true, then count on others to stand behind and beside you.

 

Dreams were made to achieve. Every success starts with a dream. Envision the goals you have set for yourself and set out to make them happen.

 

Excellence should be the end result. You should always strive for excellence. Anything less is not acceptable.

 

Focus on your goals. Stay focused and motivated on what you want out of life. Seeing the clear picture ahead of you keeps your mind on the end result.

 

God should always be the center. No matter what you want to do, God should always be the center of anything you do. Keeping him in your thoughts and mind to guide you on your path should be at the forefront of your mind.

 

Help is something that should not be hard to ask for. If you need assistance, then you shouldn’t be too proud to ask for it. Pride is good for certain things, but if used at the wrong time, it could mean disaster for you in the end. So, push your pride to the side and ask for help if it is needed.

 

Integrity should be automatic. Your character should matter to you. How you conduct yourself should be in a way that you are proud to show and that someone is proud as well to show others about you. Your integrity tells a person a lot about you.

 

Just be true to who you are. Never change who you are as a person to fit a mold that someone else has cast for you. We are all unique in our own way, so don’t be afraid to be different.

 

Knowledge should be freely shared. If you know something, don’t hold on to it because you don’t want someone else to know what you know. Life is all about learning, so share the knowledge.

 

Life has so much meaning. It’s up to you to find out what life means to you. Live life to the fullest.

 

Motivate yourself and others. Stay motivated, and motivate others to accomplish their dreams. Motivating someone else can also help to motivate, or keep you motivated in whatever it is you are doing.

 

Never give up on your dreams. No matter how hard it seems, or how long it takes, keep pushing forward to succeed. If things aren’t going the way you think they should, or moving as fast as you would like, don’t give up. Let time work itself out. In due time, you will be where you want to be.

 

Observe ways to improve yourself. Nobody is perfect, so always look for ways you can improve. Be observant of your strengths and weaknesses. Always work on creating a better you.

 

Plan ahead to keep from falling behind. Set short term and long term goals for yourself. Plan for things in advanced so if your time frame for completing something shortens, then you can always be on time no matter what because you have planned ahead.

 

Quality not quantity should be what matters most to you in your life. Possessions should never trump your quality of life. Living a safe, healthy, and happy life should override what possessions you obtain in life.

 

Remember that every success starts with a dream. Anything you want to do in life has a beginning, and that beginning is a dream. A dream to be successful at whatever you put your mind to.

 

Success is not built over night. It will take determination, support, and a lot of disappointments to get to where you want to be. Patience is a virtue. Climb the ladder of success slowly so that you can marvel at how you got to the top when you get there.

 

Take time to give thanks. Always remember the ones that helped you along your journey. Thank those who stood by when you felt discouraged or disappointed when things didn’t go your way. Thank your heavenly father for your blessings and gifts. Thank the people who influenced you.

 

Understand that things will not always be easy. If things are always given to you without any effort, then you won’t be able to enjoy the struggle and determination that you exuded to get to where you are. Everything that comes easy isn’t always a good thing.

 

Visualize where you see your life going. Always have a vision of what you want to do in life. Never just live life just to exist in life. Even if the vision you have for yourself veers, as long as you have a vision to start with it can be modified as needed.

 

Willingness to admit your faults takes courage. Don’t be afraid to admit when you are wrong. Nobody in the world is always right about everything. Admit your faults and move on to work on ways to improve them.

 

X-rays are pictures of your insides. What would your brain look like if it was x-rayed? Always keep your mind engaged in activity. Never stop learning and exploring because you finish school. The world is full of new possibilities for growth.

 

You are the key to your success. You are the starting line for whether you succeed or fail. If you don’t believe in your dream, how do you expect someone else to? It all starts with you.

 

Zest to live life. Go out and enjoy life. Don’t let minor insignificant things hold you back from being happy. Enjoy all the great things that life has to offer.

 

 

I hope you enjoyed re-learning your ABC’s. Hopefully, these words of inspiration and motivation will help jump-start your dreams, goals, and desires to be a more positive thinker. We all have those moments when we doubt ourselves, or don’t have the drive to keep going, but thankfully this list of well-crafted motivational quotes will be here to catch you when you fall short. Just pick one, and try to implement it into your life daily.